I’ve had my fair share of friendships for a 22 year old. I’ve changed so much as a person since my first ever friendship, sometimes I look back and wonder how I made those friends in the first place. I still remember my first best friend, we were inseparable since nursery and are still friendly today, but grew into two very different people, she’s actually on the other side of the world as I type.
I’ve learned some tough and sobering truths about friendship over my few years on earth, and to be completely honest, it’s one of the hardest pills to swallow in your youth. A difficult friendship is the one thing life (and TV) never really prepared me for, I had to find out the hard way.
We’re all imperfect, we all have character traits and flaws that clash, and we all have an idea of the perfect friend in our head – sometimes the people we meet don’t fit into that mould and therefore don’t fit into our lives.
It’s easy to say that about someone else, but it’s also really important to remember that people feel the exact same way about you. I know there are people who have never met me that don’t like me, there are people who have met me once and don’t like me, and there are people who I’ve known for years and don’t like me – it’s just how it is!
As I mentioned at the beginning of today’s post, I still remember my best friend. We knew absolutely everything about each other and spent almost every day together. Yet, as we entered secondary school (the place prison where everything changed), we started to drift and find people who understood us better than we understood each other.
You can try as hard as possible to be as close to someone, but on some occasions you just can’t reach that point. Every single person progresses as they age and that sometimes means growing apart from the people you once considered a second family. From time to time friendships just die.
A toxic friendship is all too common. I know I’m not alone in this boat because I have seen so many people suffer through relationships with friends that just aren’t balanced and feel more like a chore. One thing I always think to myself is that a friendship should not feel like an inconvenience. I shouldn’t be sighing and groaning at the idea of hanging out, or desperately seeking to get away.
If you can feel your mental health deteriorating around a friend, they’re not a friend. Sometimes bad associations have to be cut off, not matter how hurtful it may be.
The problem with choosing quality over quantity means you not only let toxic people into your circle (which we have established is a no-no), but also lose sight of what a real friendship is, accepting anything close to one. It’s really important that we fish out the best from the pond, and keep a relationship with those who help us appreciate ourselves, so we can also appreciate them.
I think it’s like anything: if you have a set idea in your head (especially one that unattainable), you’ll do what it takes to achieve it, and keep going until you do. When you truly value your friend or friends, you don’t need a massive group of randoms to fill out the space. You’ll be perfectly happy with what you have.
I think it’s really important to practise self-love for your own personal gain, but also the benefit that has one others.
When you start to be friends with yourself, accept you for who you are (and work on the flaws), it becomes a lot easier to be friends with other people. Plus, when you understand your likes and dislikes, traits and characteristics, you draw like-minded people into your circle which is a huge bonus. It sounds really corny and cliché, like something out of a coming-of-age film, but it’s 100% true.
What are some sobering truths you learned about friendship?